Thank you all very much for the replies. Tons of great advice that I will definitely take to heart.
As far as I can tell the one good thing about the hate and rage I am feeling is that I have been able to hide it fairly well. I have never been out of control in front of family and friends. Even when my mom told me that she wouldn't look into any of the information I have been giving her because it might change the way she feels about her two best friends (One is a jew and the other is a hispanic). Obviously this type of thing frustrates the hell out of me and is what has set off the latest waves of hatred (Not towards my mother but towards the system in general). Every time I see some whigger or a beautiful white girl with a nigger it enrages me. This is also the case when encountering jews. I know that what I am feeling is natural and also very useful but as far as turning this energy into the useful type it is going to take some time.
Again, thank you all for the replies and sound advice.
R!
As far as I can tell the one good thing about the hate and rage I am feeling is that I have been able to hide it fairly well. I have never been out of control in front of family and friends. Even when my mom told me that she wouldn't look into any of the information I have been giving her because it might change the way she feels about her two best friends (One is a jew and the other is a hispanic). Obviously this type of thing frustrates the hell out of me and is what has set off the latest waves of hatred (Not towards my mother but towards the system in general). Every time I see some whigger or a beautiful white girl with a nigger it enrages me. This is also the case when encountering jews. I know that what I am feeling is natural and also very useful but as far as turning this energy into the useful type it is going to take some time.
Again, thank you all for the replies and sound advice.
R!